You're not just in my dreams, you are the dream. If I lost you, there would be no replacing your touch, your love, your warmth, your voice, your everything. I don't want to ever lose that feeling that only you can make me feel.
So what exactly do I dream of?
You. It'll always be you.
I also dream of the kind of love that leaves the house just for sweet potato fries. I want to stop in the middle a drive and make love to you in the back seat in-front of a Dollarama. I want to jump on your back and roll in the grass. I want to beat you at soccer because you let me. I want to travel places where you can read to me about rich history. I want to write poems with you and for you. I want to laugh until our stomach burns. I want to wake up and feel like if the only good thing that happened today was waking up to you that it would be okay. I want to hold hands everywhere all the time. I want kids that we match with and drive to music classes. I want to be the couple that runs to the front to videotape our kids on stage. I want forehead kisses right before anyone ever leaves the door. I want you to hide under the bed and scare me. I want to hide in the washroom and scare you while you're in the shower. I want to wear matching sunglasses with you. I want to be in silence with you as we watch the sunset. I want to put my head on your shoulders on every airplane ride. I want to cry in the palm of your hands and for you to never stop touching my face. I want to kiss your entire chest and nuzzle your neck. I want nose kisses. I want snuggles. I want really long walks in the rain. I want to ice-skate and roller-skate by the water. I want roadtrips and to take turns playing albums from start to finish. I want really spooky Halloween decor and marathons to be a family Halloween tradition that you hate but secretly love. I want to keep adding things to the calendar. I want to do karaoke and watch you vocally out beat everyone in the first song. I want to kiss you for a really really long time. I want you inside of me, all of the time. I want to binge sci-fi and romantic shows with you. I want to take film photos that we show to our grandchildren. I want a house with a garden. I want a huge library. I want to read together on an island rooftop. I want a writing room that has a huge piano. I want you to play and sing to me while I write. I want to sing with you. I want to make family songs and sing Christmas Carols. I want to hosts get-to-togethers on our patio. I want to invest in the most beautiful couch that we fall asleep in together. I want to bird watch with you. I want to climb mountains and do hard things with you. I want to be outside in my most least favourite season with you. I want to have snowball fights and wrestling matches. I want you to teach me chess. I want to get mad when you beat me at it every single time. I want to play pickle-ball. I want to travel to South Africa, Morocco, Thailand and the Red Sea with you. I want to see the Tigers in India with you. I want to snorkel in Australia with you. I want to be successful with you. I want to open a family business, just because with you. I want to sky-dive with you. I want to try new foods and replace Salmon and mashed potatoes with you I want to set roots somewhere warm with you. I want our kids to be a reflection of you. I want it all with you, as long as it's you. As long as it's you sweetface.
I am dreaming of our forever and always.
About the Author
Keosha is a Toronto based artist who first met Stefan when she was 23 years old. Keosha's life changed the moment they met at the Paul Quarrington Ice Rink on December 11th, 2020. The number 11 has become a significant number in Keosha's life because Stefan's birthday is also on the 11th month and his birthday centers when they first had a real conversation that went until 3 in the morning. Keosha has never loved a person more than she's ever loved Stefan, he is everything she has ever dreamed of and more. This blog is dedicated to him and their love.