Since the day we met you have always been the biggest sweetheart. I know that word gets thrown around a lot but I mean truly, you oozed sweetness as soon as I saw you. Your smile. Your kindness. Your thoughtfulness. Whew, that face. The sweetest face. I was so nervous that day. I had no idea what to expect, all I knew was you were much older than me, you had a baby boy, but I had the biggest crush on you already. I wanted to make sure you saw me as a smart, sophisticated and intelligent woman. You seemed like the type of guy who didn't settle and only sought out high-value people, places and things. I was so right. You were exactly what I thought you'd be, except much safer, friendlier and more humble. I wanted to impress you so badly but you made it obvious that you didn't need glitter and glamour to be impressed. You were looking for a real person and that terrified me.
I remember first going onto the ice not knowing I still had the blade safety shields on. I was so embarrassed. We had talked for weeks about me ice-skating when I was child, how much I love it and pretty much know the basics. I felt heart race when I realized something was wrong and you might be thinking I'm a complete liar and have no idea what I'm doing (Lol). Thank God you saw for yourself, that it really was the blade shield getting in my way. After that, everything felt so natural and easy on ice with you. I feel like life with you is so similar. You stand on a lot of heavy things as a sibling, father, friend, business owner and now manager but you make it look so effortless. You make it look smooth and you never leave a crack on the ice. At least, not that I've seen. When we held hands, I felt in my gut that it wouldn't be the last time.
I know in the car ride home, I start to get a little stiff (as I do). I was so nervous to talk about myself. The life you had seemed so adult, I felt unexperienced. I lured you into coming back to my place for two reasons:
1) I wanted to be like "look, I have some things together too. My beautiful new condo." and 2) I really wanted to kiss you. Your full lips, annoyingly white teeth, and entire mouth/beard caught my attention the whole drive to get food. You know, pre-braces you was pretty fucking perfect. You just wanted to be more perfect huh?
I embarrassed myself a few times when you came over. But I really really liked you and didn't want you to leave. You were such a subtle flirt, there was a charm about you that made me smile without you having to speak. Our first kiss was soft and sweet. It encapsulated you very well. Soft in all the right ways. Sweet in the most unforgettable way.
Buying me ice skates for our very first date will always be the best gift anyone has ever given me. I'll never, ever forget it.
About the Author
Keosha is a Toronto based artist who first met Stefan when she was 23 years old. Keosha's life changed the moment they met at the Paul Quarrington Ice Rink on December 11th, 2020. The number 11 has become a significant number in Keosha's life because Stefan's birthday is also on the 11th month and his birthday centers when they first had a real conversation that went until 3 in the morning. Keosha has never loved a person more than she's ever loved Stefan, he is everything she has ever dreamed of and more. This blog is dedicated to him and their love.