Stefan, you are the love of my life. There are a thousands of reasons why I fell in love with you and even a thousand more of why I still am.
You inspire me. With your ideas, your goals, even your desires. You think big of yourself, of Lex and of the people around you. You are someone who doesn't like to take the world for granted. You want to see and learn everything. Your brain is fucking heavy. You absorb and soak in so much. You enjoy the little things. You find beauty in nature. You are gentle when you need to be and only hard when it's absolutely necessary, — like when your dreams are at stake, when someone is wasting their potential, when the world is collapsing, when you're tired from not seeing more of what life has to offer. Your priorities are always in order.
You're always thinking about how to give. Your thoughtfulness was the first thing I noticed I loved about you. I complained about my sister stealing my flat-iron and how I'm awful at wig maintenance and you order a flat iron for my the next day. You bought my skates for our damn first date. You'd drive all the way from Regent Park to Eglinton & Oakwood just to bring my ass back to Regent Park so we can sleep together. You made me porridge, one of my favourite comfort foods, when I got my wisdom teeth taken out. You made sure to have plants at home so I felt like it was also mine. You cooked for months until I was ready to learn to cook, on my own terms, not just for you but because I wanted to learn naturally and have fun in the kitchen. You let me throw out those awful brown sheets from the bed lol. You give your time, energy and heart into everything. That is why you are the most incredible friend. You will listen to people for hours, and not expect anything in return. You will order food to people's house. You will stop your day to make sure someone is safe. You will hold onto anyone who needs to be held. That is why you are the most incredible father. You treat Lex like a real person, not a child who knows nothing. You make space for him to express, and make room for mistakes. You wipe his tears and you give him what he needs before he asks. That is why you're the most incredible partner. You care about my comfort. You will do anything to give me incredible experiences. You will show me that you've been listening. You call me everyday on your ride home from work. You include me. You will do anything to make feel safer. You will buy me hair bonnets when you're in a store that reminds you of me. You will love me even when it's hard to love myself.
You're so funny. I don't care what you say, you are way funnier than me. Your laugh is literally my favourite thing. I truly feel like the world would suffer tremendously if you stopped laughing. The way you can picture what someones life story is just by looking at them, the way you can literally do ANY accent/impersonation, the way you pretend to be dead anytime I come home, the way you answer phone calls when you're in a good mood or will randomly make animal-like noises, the way you'll effortlessly roast corny people in any movie, the way you describe bad outfits, the way you laugh at yourself when you've made a bad concoction in the kitchen, the way you get afraid for a minute and do the scary thing anyway but will remind me every second that you're still scared, the way you must break silences, the way you yell at Lex for breathing, the way you make fun of your colleagues affectionately, the way you just make every room feel less stiff. You are charming, hilarious and way too wonderful of a human.
Absolutely no one loves the way you do. There is no other you.
About the Author
Keosha is a Toronto based artist who first met Stefan when she was 23 years old. Keosha's life changed the moment they met at the Paul Quarrington Ice Rink on December 11th, 2020. The number 11 has become a significant number in Keosha's life because Stefan's birthday is also on the 11th month and his birthday centers when they first had a real conversation that went until 3 in the morning. Keosha has never loved a person more than she's ever loved Stefan, he is everything she has ever dreamed of and more. This blog is dedicated to him and their love.